Que sera sera

Whatever will be, will be

xx

Resah

Im feeling uneasy these days. As if something is ought to happen.

But what would it be?

It is said to not go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because a smile makes a dark day seem bright.

I need that someone to make my day seems bright now.

Tell me

Super ultra Me

Yanky!

Its been a while since my last updates. Negligence is what you could call it. Should you know,im on a double job which stretch me to every limit a multi tasker could manage. On average, im working late in the office till 1900 hrs. Life for me is only home- office - home.

While weekends are fully used for sleeps.

*Super Ultra Robotic Me*

The jobs i does evorked major from providing support for EM,from reports and assisting in pulling GSAP report in term of stocks management, weekly open orders list. To have to provides support to monitoring and improvement of HSSE and Logistics KPI's.

On top of all,providing day-to-day support (both proactive and reactive) to peers, line supervisors and line managers on any of the issues already referred to, as well as response to immediate/unusual situations. Thus in keeping local legacy systems (ERP) up-to-date related to logistics activity.

While the other jobs which requires me to scheduled incoming n outstanding orders. Fulfilling every order before each standard lead time agreement. Monitors stock availability and orders and perform various tasks necessary to schedule. To confirm the packed volume loaded and post goods issue to generate delivery paperwork for deliveries and delivery confirmation for pick ups.

That's part of my 2 in 1 job description stated. Darn it!

Challenging as it looks.It comes with hell lots stress & unnessary pressure. It makes me unefficient when task gets undone in time.

Im not suprise to find small print in Job description stating Job description stating the ability to work under pressure heh.

xoxo

Enlightenment

If you don't stand up for something, you will fall for anything.

Have you had your stand justify? Think bout it.

Hoop on Hopes

Just when things was looking bright and I could see that I was changing. I was ready to prove it to someone. And that I've finished studies and freedom from responsibilities. I've been preparing of what to do then. I thought I had it all laid down for me.

God has a humour for time...We go through many trials that we curse and forsaken God over and over again. I know, because I have. And, eventually, we turn back to Him to seek for His comfort and love. It takes time. Sometime when we seek for His comfort and love, He still test us with trials to make us stronger.

Love, such a short word, yet, make such a big impact on anyone we see around us. Would we lose this four letter word in our lives? I know that I have lost a part of it. It still hurts. Tears will wash away the stain but not the scar.

Is it worth the wait? If you've been waiting for that movie to make its debut, you would know how it is worth the wait. But when it comes to something unpredictable, is it worth? Is it worth to fight for love when you see no hope? Is it worth to push on and never give up? Will you perseverance be rewarded? Or would it just be a dead end with all your efforts? What would you do to prove your love for someone?

Would you go the distance for love? I've gone through many that I've found it was worthless. There was good sides to it, but it never did sustain in the heart. Maybe it wasn't meant to be. Maybe in this world, it's true that some people weren't meant to have someone at their side. Maybe I was looking down the wrong road.

Tell me this, could we be saved?

Dear Santa

Days just passed too fast that Christmas is coming.Have you started to shop or perhaps have already planned for Christmas? Where would you be? I pray for this Christmas to be special, as its gonna mark 1 year of how things got started.

I've got my letter to Santa again this year and it reads ;

Dear Santa,

I know I can never be categorized as a goody good holy girl, and I might never get a present from you for not being nice.

I've never asked for a present but it's a lil bit different this year...Only ONE single wish i asked of you.

For this Christmas, i asked of you to put more LOVE in every gift and wishes you're to fulfill.

With LOVE, it helps in many ways like,

When our love ones,turn agaisnt you or,

When the one whom we helped before, come to forget the deeds and favor we did before, or

When people killed people,when murder cases arises each days, or even

When you want to see Christmas through the eyes of your loved ones.


Please Santa grant me this Christmas present, and I promise I'd forever be sweet and nice, no more tantrums, and no more indulgence in shopping.

I'll be TRY to be a good girl. I swear.

:: xOxO ::
eVe

Intrigue

I believe

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Faith, that is what has been keeping me going.

Aged

Tell me,

How old is old of an age to stop attending function like prom night?

'cz i was told at the age of 23,you should start slowing down with parties like that as its not for grown up but start planning for your future instead.

Apart

Have you ever made a decision which leave you no option to choose from? A dead end decision to pull thru?

Take for example in a real life situation-

If the Doctor asked of you, 'Which do you want me to save?The wife or the baby?'

In Christianity,you don't get to sanction which life to save- possible you'd to save both life.

Put aside religion,which would you choose?Hard one right?

I took a risk yesterday. I made a decision and risking losing something matters to me most.

Decision is to be made today, Im waiting...vy anxiously waiting and hoping 'cause that's all i can do now.

Blogging

Am i the only one feeling this way?As it feels weird when people say things like, "hey, I read your blog." or "Eh! Your a blogger, right?" or when I get recognized through my blog.

Well, I appreciate that they admit it. But it kinda makes me feel like such a dork! Some thinks blogging is the way to be famous. To get sponsors, to be invited to parties and such.

Not only yesterday someone said, ''Bloggers are people who have too much time on their hands,got nothing better else to do."

Ahh well! I started blogging years and years ago. I started blogging when everyone else was still oblivious to what a blog meant. That's how dorky I am!


However I only started blogging because I always loved writing. That’s how I got myself into art stream, story telling, debating etc. But I hated writing at the same time because it hurt my hands. Typing was way much easier for me to do. Other than that, I got to get what I've on my mind out in less than half the time that it would take to write everything out instead.


I even got my friends to start blogging. I wonder if anyone remembers me asking them to start a blog. Hahahaha. At times,I can’t commend on blogs where I find it hard to comment.

There are some bloggers out there from whom I draw inspiration and to believe that I myself manage to inspire others to draw/blog/write is just mind boggling to me. So I try not to think too much about it. If they enjoy my blog then I'm happy.


And as with any relationship, my relationship isn't perfect and sometimes I want to vent but I've learnt that some things are meant to be hold unto yourself. But no worries, we're doing great. :) ' cause nobody say it was easy.(Every now and then,i get anonymous msgs via FB/emails & sometimes random meet ups,asking if i'm attach or not. I find it disturbing dou.)


There are days where I wish I could just sing the joys of having not just any smelly old boyfriend,but a boyfriend whom has very much similarities of the inner me. How we're very much alike always overpowered the differences we had. (yay! i just don't believe we can rhymes that well.) Not to mention at days I just get overwhelmed by happiness that I wish to share it but I know people won't want to see me that happy. :P

As with anyone normal enough, I admit that my family isn’t supportive in blogging (still they gave me the strongest support when i needed them) and at times they pisses me off.They find blogging as nonsense. I don't blame them for this. I think the reason for it all is because back then, blogging wasn't a common thing. It was strange, weird, and such a nerdy thing to do! And because it was uncommon, the amount of readers I had were few. Not to mention, its as if your exploiting your own life & such.

It does come across my mind that maybe I should just privatize my blog and invite a few people to read it. Ah, but boring also that.

Hence, now everyone blogs and practically all social network sites have blogging capabilities.

There is no conclusion to this post. These are just thoughts that have been swimming about my mind just recently and for me to sketch them out. Although I do have a blog.. Calling myself a blogger is just something I feel rather uncomfortable doing. Don't ask me why! Other people are able to pronounce very proudly. I won't mind telling you about it after being asked though. Those who've known me personally would understand.

P/S: I kid about blogging being popular.


Till then, Rock On!

XOxo,
Eve

Circle of Karma

I believe,

: time is fire in which we burn,

: that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon,

: that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. 'Cause it may be the last time you see them.

What's left now are memories-

'Memory in which is a way of holding on to the things you love,the things you once were,the things you never want to lose'-Kevin Arnold


A friend of mine had a lost in the family.

God, please help her through this hard time.

Lots of love,
Eve

Things

Hey Beloved,

I guess all the things happen begin and end with a reason.i try to deny what my heart tells me now (cos am not so sure).Even i myself not so sure what does it mean..cos all i know now i want to live in a happy life which promising me that it worth it ..no one says it would be easy.

I know sometimes I break hearts and yea!i remember how it felt when mine was broken.
I’d cry because time is passing too fast, and i’ll eventually lose someone I love.

In love, I really put effort and give my whole into loving you. When gap between us just gets bigger and that I feel you’re getting far.

I know you were the one who is constantly reminding you of how much you cared about me and how lucky you are to have me.

Into my life a little rain will fall,for you are like an umbrella,
to hold above my head,and help me think about,the sunny days instead.


Into my life a little sun will shine,with you a little sunshine that will be grand,
as we talk and walk together, securely hand in hand.

Into each life a little wind will blow,having you to guide me,can help me make the choice,by offering your view,and adding a new voice.

You’re constantly on my mind every now and then. I really miss you, only God’s know how much.

Serendipity yours,
Eve

Karma baby

Does gossip makes life a lil' more interesting?

Tell me,i REALLY would like to know.

Blah

Why BoTher HanGin on?When we kNow 1 day it all cOme DowN wIthIN seConds.

Eve

What's Valentine to you?

What is Valentine to you? Is it the day where lovers express their love for each other by sending Valentine's cards, presenting flowers, or offering confectionery. This is what valentine meant to me.

Its Valentine when you got a new family member around.I have always admire babies as they are the only creation made with genuine feeling.So innocent and yet lovable.Listen to every cries they made,every gesture done and every tantrum given.Some may say its nuisance,i think its their way of communicating.Unlike adults,as they grow,the tendency of hurting you even more.

Its Valentine,when you get to go the Funfair twice a week and hear your gf screaming her lungs outs. And when the twister twist and turn you upside down...the feeling? Almost Nirvana.

Credit: Timothy

Its Valentine, When you have peeps to laugh with as if we're high.

Credit: Alvin
Its Valentine, When i get to toogle a DSLR.

Credit: Alvin

Its Valentine, when your feeding your soul.Darn shiok!

Credit: Jimmy

Its Valentine, when your seeing no evil.

Credit: Alvin

Its Valentine,when im having my cup of coffee everyday.

That's Valentine to me. I don't need flowers nor chocolate to be pleased at.

To those whois longing for the one whom yet to come by...
To those whom would be lonely this day,as your better half is away...
Treasure those around you,embrace life...Rock On!




Will you be my frog prince?

p/s: Thanks for all the lovely MSGs and CALLS. I may not reply to your MSGs doesn't meant i don't care...think that im in the middle of something urgent.

Happy Valentine's day to all.

xOXo,

Eve

Let it burn

What do you say to chances?
A great debate i had this morning...


Remember dat we can only move on if we accept the things that we didnt want to happen, learn the things we dont want to know and let go of the memories that we can't live without






Don't let others bring you down.
what they don't realize is that the more they hate someone the more they become that person they hate. That's why people say "one could never hate so much, because you will succumbed to that feeling of hatred towards the other person or thing bit by bit until one day,
you become that thing you hated so much"... so don't hate. forgive & forget. learn to let go & move on.-

I believe nobody knows just why you are where you are but your own self.It could be fate Or random circumstance.
It could so happen your at the right place at the right time.

I also believe its two roads intertwine and if the universe conspired to meld our lives.
To make us Fuel and fire.Then know Where ever you will be.

So too shall I'd Close your eyes,dry your tears cause when nothing seems clear.
You'll be safe here from the sheer weight Of your doubts and fears of weary heart...


Pray and believe when the light disappears and when this world's insincere,You'll be at peace. When nobody hears you scream I'll scream with you.
Save your eyes from your tears When everything's unclear,from the sheer weight Of your doubts and fears Wounded heart.

When no one understands,I will believe You.So put your heart in my hands. Rest assure all things will be fine. I got your back for sure!


xOxo,
Eve

Anecdoctal

Am feeling insecurity as...

I am no philosopher but I often come up with some made logic lines to comfort my friends and family and myself when needed. Being a literature student myself , I used to write some poems but I seem to have lost the ability to write already.

I get moody when I am not properly fed. Yes, food is indeed a very important part of my soul. Being so self conscious and yet I am still not willing to eat less to shed some weight could reflect to you how much I love food already.

And it cuts me so deep to see me being thrown into that sort of hell-hole.
I have learned how to survive. I am slowly realizing. Nothing more nor nothing less.

Credit to Joe Doe

Perhas I'll hear you, but I won't listen. If you think you know me (like you've claimed all this while), you should know how much I despise being compared to. I am a Lady, I am no longer the child you think you knew. Thanks to you, I've learned from the very best, which is you. I try not to be you.

Yet I am constantly reminded of how I am very much like you. I used to be very proud of who I am...but now I just don't know if I am still as proud as I used to be. There are things you cannot tell a soul,can't afford to tell even to your closest trusted friends. You can't speak your heart out but to store them a side in you which will eventually eat you out slowly.

At the end of the day,who and what matters the most is you and people whom you loved and care about. The rest doesn't matter.

One thing's for sure. I’ve got my own battles to fight now and I know very well as to not expect you to come and save my day.
I fight my own fights and I am not like the others
I am different.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You’ll fight with your best friend.

You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back.

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot; who calls you back when you hang up on him; who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead; who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats; who holds your hand in front of his friends.




Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,”. that’s her.”

Life of reflections

xOxo,

Eve

Love,uncondition affection

I was struck by something while scamming thru Nov issue of Female just now.

An article caught my attention in blogging bout it.

'I dumped my finance after he got cancer' Testicular cancer and impotence ruined their relationship by Audrey Vijaindren

In sickness and in health, till death do us part....Jennifer* called off her wedding as she could not make the promise. Brian was diagnosed with testicular cancer and could not get erection thus was infertile.

Jennifer was torn between the love she have for Brian,11 months later. Jennifer saw Brian in a shopping mall hand in hand with his new fiancee -a nurse at the hospistal he goes to for his CT scans. They were getting married in 2 months!

There are people who would seek to say that Love is an unjusitfied emotion, and is in fact triggered by the karma.

It's explicable, but confusing. Some say you will "love" people that which Karma is at presence or perhaps of same intuition and so on.(May which explains why some guys end up with girls that are so much like their own mothers), and if this is true...

This would only proves just how well-thought out our lives must be.

If your a believer in a God, and that the theory was so true.Don't you think God would have sketch our destiny even before creating us as his master piece?
God would have manage many events to create the right tempo which would have put together all of us literally by hand, and by a one of its kind all on our own.


How great is that?

:: xOXo ::